again...today i sit and wonder....i realize that i in my family not the one extraordinary excellent but extraordinary stupid instead. i always tell myself i must be the extraordinary clever one but i failed to do so. since i knew what are abc and 123 then i have been working very hard in my studies but don't know why i am still the extraordinary stupid in my family. i never feel assured or not to worry about my studies as well as to my parents. for them, i m the only one who need their extraordinary worries and supervise. but in other word,maybe i always fail to get extraordinary good results for them so they only need to so worry about me. my elder sister got seven As in pmr but i only got 6 and my younger sister got straight A in upsr it shows i really have no qualification to compete with them, don't even a little. sometimes i really feel pressurized, but i try to tell myself that all the pressure i encounter will bring success in my future.incidentally, in my future i wish to be a doctor....is this too ambitious? i think might be so i never tell my friends about it....for my family they all...i am really really a very ambitious person...anyway...by hook or by crook i don't think i achieve my this ambitious dream...so this just take is as a crap...
it is easy to be the extraordinary stupid but hard to be the extraordinary clever ones...i don't wish to die because of suffocation in this rat race environment and era...by the way....of cause i don't think about die when i m dying because i am dead !!
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1. Hi.i m kiet eie