it has been few days that his name is not visible in my phone's inbox. i really wish i could speak my mind out to him, but i dare not simply because i m too coward. naturally, misses exist, as does the desire to text him, but everything is much more controlled and i never act on my thoughts. again simply because i am too afraid. i am afraid that i annoyed him. i am afraid that he takes me nothing less than just a very normal friend. i even more afraid that everything will be too late when i finally found the courage to tell how much i missed him. 

i told woon yin he is always appears in the right time. the time when i needed supports the most. because he always puts confidence in me. he never doubt about my capability before, yet the positive thinking i posses now is came from him. last time i was a person who totally lack of confidence.nevertheless, he has always been there to share my triumphant and victorious moments, and when i had my share of disappointments and frustrations, he is habitually there with his kind words of comfort. 

sometimes i really doubt, u came and joined me for badminton with your injured back. i asked, don't it matter? u said u wanna to test the limit of your back and see how far it can go. i really unsure what were you thinking. i just know you didn't let me down at the end but your injury got more serious. you even told me, after meeting me again just make you feel like getting back to taekwondo. i in doubt about you more. 

good news people. wakakkaka now u guys can choose not to sit cheng fai's messy car edi. u have another choice, that is my car. wakkakakak finally i passed my driving test today. wow. happy for me for you? haha. today totally is a great day. even though i had to endure the hotness and dirtiness in the driving school just now, but i felt worth.haha. woke up at 5.30 then headed to there.everyone was asking me why need go bangi so far to take the test, i have no ideas at all, ask ngar mun why, yea coincidentally HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ngar mun. wakakkakaka.

i hope everything can last a little bit longer. he showed that he cares. he never make me down. wakakkakkaa. but someone's message came earlier than him. wakakkak that is my oldest yet not as cute as kevin classmate. such a surprise. i guess he was bored in the school that's why he wished me. dude am i ritez? wakakkakka. whatever, just finished talking phone with kah ben. not really a long chat but he made me suffered alot. i don't know since when he talks like me already. 口齿不清 . most of time i was just saying "har...har...i don't hear what u said" to him. wakakkaka. to my dear friends, now only i know how hard it is to get what i say. haha sry. i m apology. haha. the next i m gonna menceritakan those friends i met today. look forward ya. haha lazy now. see ya.

when a woman loves a man. she attempts to interest the man in whatever ways. she tries to look her best all the times. she tries to find out as many things as possible about the man. and even she tries to be the very woman of his dreams. eventually this the beginning of the wonderful thing called "love".

friends of mine made me have this thought. but it is true. and for sure, i am no exception either.

actually i have planed to start off my preparation for the competition today but because of the oldest yet most baby like's friend said he laughed at my post when he read it. this aroused my curiosity. so i used the half an hour to reread and reread my post. i dun see anything worth a laugh. wakakkaka nvm lar...now he is in sweet sweet state whatever he sees he smells he touches also will make him feel SWEET. but as a friend of you must remind you this, beware of kencing manis ya xD wakkakaka.

he is unremitting emerge in my mind. i m pining for his best wishes of luck for my big day at tomorrow. but this might be just a dream, a mere fantasy that seems impossible to actualize. but i still wish that he cares. looking forward to his msg apprehensively, really hate the fearful feeling of being depressed by him. whatsoever just wish the god will bless me tomorrow. love ya.