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ups n downs likes see saw

Sunday, November 30, 2008 / 10:01 PM

i wish i could be in a JOVIAL mood forever.i knw i am always being tat greedy because i wan the best for myself. often times i hate to b a loser so i m trying to satisfy my life. get the best do d best n be the best. no doubt tat i reali felt contended with my current life.i hv a joyfulness family, a bunch of good friends and a lovely doggie , barbie .

Embraced by laughters is the great escape from tis reality era. this whole week i reali tasting d feeling on the top of the world. few days ago, i talked phone with my primary friends for more thn three hours. it was absolutely amazingly exciting. their words thrilled me. i non stop laughing for three hrs. my friends n i talked about everything from boys to studies and of course girly gossip.the last chat with them was like one year ago surprisingly we dun have estrangement. i dun even have this much things to talk with my current friends. our friendship is really awesome.

nevertheless, yesterday i had a hang out wif my best friends hoh kah ben n kin leong. it was also an awesome ones. but the time v spent in hanging was really short n reasonable not enough. by the way we managed to catch a movie named twilight n had lunch together. we have unlimited topic to chat about, d pass and even the future. i was so delighted to see him. he is the person who i most desired to see. he is always my best friend and soulmate. i always feel happy around him yet he never failed me.

i really felt contended with my current life. i felt d life neither inside of me nor outside of me growing more aggressively then normal. i gonna be an adult who could drive. i gonna to have my freedom to go wherever i like without begging n asking parents to fetch. today i went for undang class with friends again, woon yin ngar mun hon keat weng kee n baby leong. it was being expected bored. more suffer then studying in class. but i was so pleased to see them. at the same time i felt an unfamiliar surge of dumbness toward him. this knowledge really surprised me. i tot i would be very happy to c him but i did no. this knowledge shocked me again. thing i know is i got nth to talk to him. i think i will fix myself with it. haha i believe in god,

times will heal everything as i really meant it EVERYTHING.

i dun wan things go more complicated. simple is the best. so need to take control before damage. instead of struggling not to think of it, better let it goes naturally.

but before that, can u dun leave thing unspoken? at least tell what u want and what u think.

you know what,i m tired of guessing.

haha now chin leou gyn i think i could understand your feeling now

is like

forbidden to remember, terrified to forget

betul ke?

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nvr had a dream lik tis b4

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 / 12:47 AM

these few days i hv a serious nightmare

having d same dream every night

seeing him in my dream

dreamed of him nt willing to talk to me anymore

yet this dream unremitting springs to my mind

the images tat he left me alone without saying a word in d dream

still vividly in my mind

that reali deeply terrified me

coz it really likes reality nw

so d dream to me is like adding insult to injury

it hurts

am i paranoid? am i self-conscious? am i think too much?

am i too overly examine tis dream?

i dun knw

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i knw for sure pain is rushing into me

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Tuesday, November 25, 2008 / 2:08 AM

a new skin

a new starting : )

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balancing

Friday, November 21, 2008 / 1:57 AM

i ned my balance

i think tat i care more for u thn u do for me?

can u keep the balance ?

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Thursday, November 20, 2008 / 3:02 PM

i went to IPOH last weekend for two days one night

be4 i kick off i asked hon keat's friend june i think '' ipoh gt wat interesting place to visit "

bt she answered me without hesitation "no"

nw i think she is so right i can tell u ipoh oni famous wif

food , leng lui , temple , mountain , gua-gua

so as ppl say '' a picture worth a thousand words"

so many pictures here can tell u hw fun ipoh is

memories always taste sweet

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MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

Tuesday, November 18, 2008 / 12:47 AM

wow MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE is so ROCKSSS

their latest album - the black parade is dead [i yearn to get ittttt]

i hv no idea since whn i lik rock musics so much

last time i felt rock musics r so annoying n din

bt nw i chged my mind

even regretted tat i choose to learn classical guitar

instead of electrical guitar

i reali highly promote u TEENAGER from them

it can make u totally dissolve in their drum beats n shoutings

and oso BLOOD

it is vry special n awesome

so people go check out abt MY CHEMICAL ROMAMCE

i bet u will like it =]

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Sunday, November 9, 2008 / 1:16 PM

nowadays children are reali AMAZED me

this morning i went for taekwondo class and late for one hour

becoz i cant wake up early....wakakkaka

do u knw hw my juniors AMAZED me

their bad words r more geng thn me *sry i don say bad word i mean thy knw more thn me*

even one boy oni standard three taught me som bad words i nvr heard b4

so plz don ever UNDERESTIMATE nowadays' children

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/ 1:16 AM

wakakakka i felt so happie today again...i met som1 vry good in dancing...i admire her alot as i mean is vry vry vry vry much....her name is nikki i think u guys gt seen her in adam's story if u do watch tat show, she is damn hot n yeng.wakakaka at last i showed my guts n requested her to take photo wif me n my cousin sis, d photo is taken wif handphone so d pic i guess is nt reali good in quality yet it is still in my cousin sis' s hp....hehe anyway show u guys some random pics of my sis n i after came bak frm d dinner....a bday dinner of my anuty...wakakkaka

here u go, if u hv heart attack better don roll down ya

haha i knw my sis is prettier thn me

somhow i reali envy her

we r crazy sisters

haha suddenly i gt a phone call frm YEW KUAN

wakakakka

she is scolding me bcoz i m annoying her xD

she wants me to get serious bt i cant sry ya sis

lastly wanna to reveal d sexiness of my sis

wakakak i gt fainted too

- the end -

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Thursday, November 6, 2008 / 12:01 AM

i felt a spasm of estrangement btw u n me

i wish it is js a virtual

yet i didn't see it as an omen - it is IMPOSSIBLE

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Monday, November 3, 2008 / 12:17 PM

with d god of love,today i bothered to go skul without any of f4sc2 ppl came.it reali took me a lot of courage to make this decision. all this because i had an intense feeling tat I WAN GO TO SKUL. i know nay for sure it is nth to do at skul, be at home is the best.but somehow i reali went to skul for idling. wakkakaka it luckily turn out to fun. i joined wif commerce ppl n it was solemnly fun. never thought it could be so fun without f4sc2 ppl. i mistakenly bore this idea tat canot go skul without f4sc2 ppl.mayb bond wif commerce ppl will develop into another kind of laughters n thrills....who knows!!! btw i m nt goin to skul tml as i decided to spend my precious time at home in fact home is a paradise to me. nonetheless i m going to giv f4sc2 blog a new look in order to redeem my fault.wakakkaaka...nitez ya

i wan to cherish every single day of my life =]

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