know me ♥

say smthg

bloggers

forever and always

stay beautiful

Sunday, March 29, 2009 / 10:47 PM

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Saturday, March 28, 2009 / 11:55 PM

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

stucked.

Sunday, March 22, 2009 / 1:42 AM

actually i retype and retype this post for twice. but i still cant get the right words right sentence that i wanted on my mind. i m craving for more expressive words and sentences so i delete and delete. in order to make it more easier and understandable, i decided to use very very simple sentences. please do excuse me.

today i felt so fresh and my mind is as clear as crystal. it was my first time i get what chemistry teacher had taught in class as i have been taking tuition there for more than three months.

before this i hardly concentrate in doing one thing because my mind always wander off to him. get it more simple. my mind is only him. i like to think over and over about those conversations had with him. i thought myself fall deeper into him as days go by. but now i can sure i was wrong. i found he had fled away from my mind without my notice until today.well today i had a little chat with him in the msn. he asked about my love life. till that moment i only remember nay recall back that i told him i have little crush on him. wtf. this was happened like two weeks ago. don't know why i cant remember at all. at the same time i realized he didn't sms me for days. i realized myself no longer beg to see his name appears  in my phone like last time i did whenever my phone rings. now i can very sure i never fall into him  before.mayb i m just taking him too serious as the person i care. but what i have cared for him  not worth a damn from him. which causes sheer pain in me.suan le.

u know who u are, now u totally a stranger to me, i cant figure out why. yet i don't wish to have this kind of strange feeling. besides strange, i really cant find a better and more expressive word to describe the feeling i have toward u now. i not dare to use the word have an ample distance between u n me, this only making the line that exists between us more clearly n obvious. i m trying my best to set myself free infront of u like last time. spite whatever on my mind to u as i used to be, u know what  i watch my words now without my awareness.i hate it seriously, i m seeking the feeling i used to have when i be with you. mayb this the fate. wtf. 

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Wednesday, March 18, 2009 / 8:22 PM

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

shed tears.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009 / 3:20 PM

she cried.i astonished. split second i was speechless and stunned while holding my phone. her sobbing sounds wiped away my thoughts. i took few seconds to acknowledge myself that she is crying. an abrupt tears believable shocked herself too. she is the toughest girls i ever met. she is always braver then other girls. she has a rational and logical thinking all the times. friendly,lovely and cute is her natural instinct. everyone loves her existence because she makes surrounding nothing much but laughters. her high pitch high frequency voices is the sign of her appearance. 

for a moment in time, the sense of insecurity rushed into her cruelty. i believed she had tried to hold herself strongly but still lost in him at the end. she virtually lingered on him for a period without his awareness and as well as mine. again is a bleeding love for her. the acts of the boy cut her heart silently yet wanting of the consciousness from him. furious at the attempt to manipulate her. unknown of anger came into her whenever she saw the lass besides him. normally people addressed those unknown of angers as jealousy. no doubt i agree with it. i comforted her with my best. told her what she supposed to know. talked about what she supposed to do. eventually she stopped.i relieved.

i really feel sorry to her. she is always been in a solely world. with no one knows she is contributing. someone said not to see things from the appearance and surface only instead of looking into deeper but the someone is doing it. no idea why. by the way i always think a suitable talk is needed whenever there is a problem occurs between lovebirds. in fact both of them don't even know what are their problems. keeping things in heart is only blunder on the problems.

my lovely ones, clean up your mind as he is putting down you in the same time too. yeah be strong.i always there for you,

is only a piece of essay writing with my sudden inkling.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Saturday, March 14, 2009 / 10:55 PM

tagged by sook yeeeeeeee 

Remove 1 question from below and add in a personal question, make it a total of 20 questions. Then tag 5 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. do you believe in god?

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

today is friday :)

Friday, March 13, 2009 / 8:06 PM

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

kids co me senior. xD

Wednesday, March 11, 2009 / 7:44 PM

------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

my days

Friday, March 6, 2009 / 11:00 PM

*inhale* *exhale* cooling down myself. hopefully there is no sense of anger sneaked in this post.
my mood was extremely suck like my face."dun ask wt has happened to my face"
REALIZED.
my mood is just like a see-saw. swing up and down according to him.
when he talks to me i will feel like reaching above the sky and touching the clouds.
when he ignores me when he refuses to acknowledge the existence of me
i will be imbalanced and sway by him.
HATRED.
i know myself damn hateful. when my mood is down people around will receive the consequences.my temper eventually lose control and Faranza :(
i m apology. i m trying my best to learn how to keep my temper in control. i need time to alter.
GAVE UP.
i tot i could change my friend into a better and responsible person. dissapointment is the only thing in return.i was totally too high estimated myself. i felt sheer pain. struggling over and over . saya finally decided to putus asa !!! leaves things to go his way. he wants to keep himself in this way. up to him. dun care jorrr.
but i still sincerely pray for miracle to happen which is he would change in one day.
EPINEPHRINE.
exam comming. i cant run away from stress. but i run into laziness . i admit am more lazy compared to last time :(
TRILLED.
haha matchk complained my blog is very dull on my birthday that day. most of the posts are talking about sad things.haha now i would like to talk about my sweet 17 birthday.i sure this is something happy. i have been officially 17 year old for one week. wakkakakkaka. actually there was no what special celebration on my birthday. but i adored in the greeting n wishing of my friends. i received a birthday card from my primary friend. that was the greatest wishes ever. loves her.she is my best friends ever. and thank you for those wishing and the presents as well. i appreciate it alot. thank a bunch // haha :)

truthfully OF ME.
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------