it has been few days that his name is not visible in my phone's inbox. i really wish i could speak my mind out to him, but i dare not simply because i m too coward. naturally, misses exist, as does the desire to text him, but everything is much more controlled and i never act on my thoughts. again simply because i am too afraid. i am afraid that i annoyed him. i am afraid that he takes me nothing less than just a very normal friend. i even more afraid that everything will be too late when i finally found the courage to tell how much i missed him. 

i told woon yin he is always appears in the right time. the time when i needed supports the most. because he always puts confidence in me. he never doubt about my capability before, yet the positive thinking i posses now is came from him. last time i was a person who totally lack of confidence.nevertheless, he has always been there to share my triumphant and victorious moments, and when i had my share of disappointments and frustrations, he is habitually there with his kind words of comfort. 

sometimes i really doubt, u came and joined me for badminton with your injured back. i asked, don't it matter? u said u wanna to test the limit of your back and see how far it can go. i really unsure what were you thinking. i just know you didn't let me down at the end but your injury got more serious. you even told me, after meeting me again just make you feel like getting back to taekwondo. i in doubt about you more.